Self-motivated

THe biggest thing I have learned from studying overseas is not blaming to the other's but myself. Like Professor Treanor said" don't blame on the text is boring, blame on yourself not clever enough to understand them." 

I remember when I first came to the states and received a non-passing grade, its like end of the world. I was pissed off and thought of a thousand reasons to argue with my professors. No doubt, I was failed to do so, since she got the power, experience to deal with students like me. 

The only way I could do was showing them how fucked up I could be if I failed my paper. This worked in college. But now, it's an University. No excuse accepted, discipline is expected. 

What I can do is keep studying, trying my best with no regrets..
Sometimes I know what you pay is not equal to what you get but if you wouldn't pay, don't ever think of getting back a penny. 

I screwed up my first history midterm, but the score is out of my expectation. I can feel helping form friends is how important. I told a lot of people I was studying like dying for this midterm. Comparing to people who stay library for studying almost 10 hours per day, I was nothing.