My Holiday.

Well, it is almost a week after my finals. People have asked me for the same question- any plan for your holidays? Clear as crystal, No. Or "my plan" is not a plan to anyone because what I enjoy to do is all home activity. No doubt, it looks so lonely but, it's more lonely to hang out with a brunch of people who are not familiar with, like doing something which suppose to do with friends with strangers.

I know how it feels like. In order to get rid of the feelings of empty. I try to reach people as many as I can. The turn out is either hurting others or myself. Therefore, I'm so satisfied to spend my holidays alone. At least, the money I could spend on materials I like. "Meeting people" is such an risky investment to me in this strange place(US), as if you can pay a lot and get nothing afterward. I mean, not only people wouldn't care you, but also spreading rumor about you.

As I study here almost 3 years, I truly understand how people use the others. People use each other just in different ways. Some of them would provide money( cars, entertainment), and the other would provide some satisfaction they don't have. Friendship is supposed to be a simple pure relation, but it can be complicated as twisted string.

If all the things are just built upon materials, why I should involve. Of course, I know there are some friend who are worth to support still and I hope they can last forever.