My weakness

Backed for almost 2 weeks, my health starts having problems. Crowed, air pollution, suffocated weather makes me dizzy, anxious. Sometimes I just feel like I can even walk a straight line in Hong Kong. I'm trying so hard to adapt it. 

I was someone who you used to rely on, but now it makes me worried. I'm worrying if I lose the ability to let you rely on, would you still stay with me? This period is the hardest moment in my life, I feel like when we are not together, everything comes worse. Like last summer, do you remember? It's such a torture for both of us, but luckily the shitty things didn't separate us. 

Before I was just a selfish person and never stand in your position. No matter what you do I turned it negatively, in fact all of things you do are showing how much you love me. I'm regret to create such anxiety and insecurity feelings to you. 

When I know finally I have to leave you temporary or even permanently, I finally realized I'm not a cold blood animal, I feel the feeling of missing a person. At that moment, all of the memories popped up in my mind, from how I met you to the present, they are all unforgettable moment in my life still. 

Now, I realized living without you is my biggest weakness..